Thank you!

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I wanted to take a minute to say thank you to everyone who blessed our lives while we were living in Salem. I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I am so thankful first for my amazing parents who have always put up with me and who always helped me out when I needed something. so grateful for you guys and the number of hours you put into helping us move. We couldn’t have done it without you. My parent in laws for always sharing there testimony with us. Thank you to the primary kids that I got to teach who built my testimony so much. Thank you to our bishop who was always there for us when we needed his help. The Harris’s for allowing us to share there beautiful home with them. Thank you to my grandma for spending countless hours teaching me how to play the piano for free! I can never repay you! Thank you to our ward you guys are such a great example of faith and loving others! Thank you to my brothers, my brother in laws and my sister in laws you always make me grateful for family! Thank you to everyone I missed, (I think if I listed everyone this blog post would be extremely long) all of you have built my testimony in one way or another. Thank you again to all those who helped us move the elders quorum presidency, and those in our family who were able to. We really appreciate it! Thank you most importantly to Heavenly Father who made everything possible for us to be in west valley so Bryson can pursue his dreams. I’m going to miss our hometown but I know that this sacrifice we are making will bring us so many blessings. I know that God has a hand in our lives. Sometimes I think we wait on God but in all reality he waits on us to pray to him and then he can bless us with the things we stand in need of. I’m not perfect and no one is but I know that if you take the time to pray he will always let you know if what you are doing is right. As I sit here in my new apartment wondering if we made the right decision to move to west valley I feel peace. I know that where we are is the right place for us right now. Even though it’s hard and I miss Salem like crazy I feel so much peace. “I never said it would be easy I only said it would be worth it!”

I love you all and thank you again!

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…Every day we get the opportunity to learn something new…

Every day we get the opportunity to learn something new. I feel like I learn new things everyday about myself, family, music, and just life in general. If we are opened to learning new things, we can be guided to things that can help us learn whats most important in life. I’ve learned that I love music more than I have ever loved it before. I’ve learned that family is the most important thing in life. I’ve learned that god blesses us if we give him the opportunity to and he guides and directs us. Lately, my life has been focused around those three things, god, family, and music.

God- God guides and directs my life everyday even when I am so undeserving of it. I am so grateful to know that he always has my back. I am thankful for everything that he has blessed me with. I don’t know where I would be without the guidance and direction I receive from him. He takes care of me and Bryson everyday and i’m so blessed.

Family – the more time I spend with family I learn more that they are my best friends. I remember when I was in high school and hated spending time with family all I wanted to do was spend time with my friends. But what I didn’t realize is that in the future my best friends would be my husband, my mom and dad, my grandparents, and my two awesome brothers. I’m blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. They teach me so much and being able to talk to these people, as well as spend time with them and just laugh and be silly has shown me I really do have the best family!

Music – I am so grateful to have learned the things I have learned from my voice teacher about the voice and how it works. I am also grateful for my awesome Grandma Hawkins and how she has been so patient and helpful in teaching me how to play the piano. I am excited about my new songwriting class that I am taking online and can’t wait to start writing songs of my own. I have already written a few but they are still in the works. One day I will also have Bryson tech me how to play the guitar to.

I’m grateful for the things i’ve learned over the past few months and for the things i’ve become grateful for.

Here are some pictures over the past couple of months…

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My Life In Pictures The Last Few Months

I have a really hard time updating my blog. Maybe because I never know what to say. So this month since I really don’t have much to say here is what i’ve been up to lately. Its been a good couple of months.
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A book I just finished reading… It was such an amazing book. below is one of my favorite quotes.

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I took this picture one day when Bryson and I were out disc golfing with my family. Never knew my iPhone could take such a beautiful picture.

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This is totally what I needed to see in my fortune from Panda. Sometimes I need to refocus and live in the now instead of the tomorrow.

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I got this award at scrapbook weekend. Everyone got awards and this was mine.

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What I get to study. Love it!

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One of my favorite things I’ve seen on facebook.

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I turned 22. I can’t believe how old I am!! “I don’t know about you but I’m feeling 22!”-Taylor Swift. It was a great birthday. Went shopping with my mom and then out to eat with my whole family at Brick Oven.

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A beautiful painting I got that my Grandpas Sister Dorothy painted.  Can’t wait to hang it up! She was very talented.

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Instagram quote that I loved.

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Me and Bryson out Disc Golfing.

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Look where Bryson and I are going! Can’t wait. September needs to be here tomorrow!!

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My new electric keyboard. I love it!

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Us by our new car.

I have cheerleaders and I know who they are.

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If I were to write a post about how I am not feeling and pretend everything is roses and sunshine in my life, I wouldn’t be telling you all the truth. This is probably why I haven’t wrote on my blog for about 4 months now. You may not want to read this because you probably won’t agree with me. But if you dare read on.

Following my dream has been the biggest challenge/difficulty I have ever faced in my entire life! There has been SO MUCH UN-needed opposition about my goals in life right now and what I am doing with my time. Countless people like to stick there nose in where it doesn’t really belong. Don’t get me wrong I love advice but not every time I see someone. I don’t like to here the phrase this is what you should be doing every time I get together with someone. Because once I’ve heard it I take it into account, I look at it from my view and theirs, I weigh out all the pros and cons and then I make my decisions. But not on my own, I make them with the guidance of a loving and caring Heavenly Father who knows me and my future better then anyone.

A couple of weeks ago I was asked for the millionth time by someone, “What do you do all day?” Because so many people ask me this question, I wanted to scream at this person and say. “I sit around all day and do nothing. Because I don’t work right now so that’s exactly what I do! I am lazy and yes thank you for looking at me that way.” But instead I kept my cool, and I simply told this person what my week consists of.

I won’t waste my breath by saying that I have got promptings in the temple about what I need to be doing right now, because no one ever wants to listen to those. Everyone discounts that because they have there own opinion. They haven’t prayed about it, and they definitely aren’t me and haven’t got the promptings I have. I have heard the phrase, “Sometimes I think we make promptings up in our own heads.” And if that’s the case then please tell me that you can think these things up in your own head in the temple and that its not the spirit. The one place on earth where Heavenly Father gives his children counsel and guidance.

Here’s a story for you. One day a man named Rafiki (I know funny name for me to pick right? It was the first thing that came to my mind) decided that he wanted to go to college to be a Doctor. “This is going to be the best thing I have ever done.” He thought. “I am going to make millions!” Well Rafiki got into school and went through the motions for about 2 years and got all of his generals done. He then started to question if this was the path he really wanted to take. “Maybe, I want to do something with art?” He then started to seek out exactly what he wanted to do and found out that he loved painting. In fact, he always had. He was just worried that he would never be able to live his dream. So he decided college wasn’t for him and he started to get all kinds of complaints from people around him. “Well what are you going to do.” They said. “You probably won’t make a lot of money.” But instead of listening to this nonsense, Rafiki decided to go on and pursue his dreams anyways. Rafiki didn’t make millions but eventually he was able to provide for his family and sold many paintings through the years. He lived a happy life without becoming a well-paid doctor.

Here is my point I would like to make. Photography was something I tried out that I didn’t like. A lot of people don’t understand that I simply “changed my major.” I am not doing it anymore. I like it but I don’t love it, and I’m sorry to everyone that I have changed my major. I didn’t know that I would have to apologize this much.

I have cheerleaders and I know who they are. If you are not one of them then that’s okay I don’t need you. I have kept my cool for way too long. I need positive, encouraging, uplifting people in my life. I don’t need negative, discouraging, tearing down kind of people. If you can’t accept that photography is not my path and i’m not doing it anymore, then that’s okay I will forgive you and move on. Believe me I wish you all the happiness in everything you do. But I choose to be around the positive not the negative. I can only take so much until I have had enough.

Here is what I am doing right now in case anyone wants to know. Right now I am currently taking care of our apartment. I do all the cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, etc. Everything that goes into making a home a home. 2 hours out of my week are spent at piano and singing lessons. Another 20 hours are spent studying, practicing and putting my whole heart and soul into what I will be doing in a couple months, which is teaching singing lessons. But most importantly I feel like I am preparing myself to be a mother for when the time comes and I can’t think of anything that would make me happier, or be a better career.

I am grateful for a husband who supports me, takes care of me, and loves me despite all of my faults and imperfections. I am grateful for Bryson because when no one else has really been there for me and supported me, through all of this he has. I am thankful for him being such a hard worker. I am thankful that he wants the best for me. That he can see how unhappy photography makes me and how happy music makes me. I am thankful that he cheers me on every day of my life and encourages me to just be me. He is my biggest fan and supporter, he is my biggest cheerleader. I love him with all of my heart and am so thankful that Heavenly Father sent him to me to help me through all of my challenges and difficulties.

I am also thankful for all of the people who have encouraged me to do what I love to do. Thank you for your support and I will continue to be grateful for your love and acceptance.

Here is a list of people I look up to that have lived there dreams and how they have.

Walt Disney- Disney was fired from the Kansas City Star in 1919 because, his editor said, he “lacked imagination and had no good ideas.”
J.K. Rowling- She got fired when working at the London office of Amnesty International because she would write stories on her work computer all day long.
Oprah Winfrey-She was an evening news reporter and apparently got fired because she couldn’t sever her emotions from her stories. Eventually she was fired from the producer of Baltimore’s WJZ-TV.
Elvis Presley-After a performance at Nashville’s Grand Ole Opry, Elvis was told by the concert hall manager that he was better off returning to Memphis and driving trucks (his former career).
Thomas Edison-He worked at Western Union where he used to secretly conduct experiments. Then, one night in 1867, he spilled some acid and it ate through the entire floor. He was fired and subsequently decided to just pursue inventing full time.
Steve Jobs-Jobs was fired from his own company.
Lucille Ball-Before her iconic show I Love Lucy, Lucille Ball was considered a failed actress, a B-list actress. So much so that her drama instructors urged her to try another profession.
Michael Jordan-He was cut from his high school basketball team. He once said, “I have missed over 9,000 shots in my career. I have lost almost 300 games. On 26 occasions I have been entrusted to take the game winning shot, and I have missed. I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”

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It has been forever since I have blogged!!! Goodness! These pictures were taken about 2 months ago! My little brother Dallas won the city league basketball game. Bryson and I made signs for the BIG game and everyone loved them! We had people asking if they could hold them. Here are my favorite pictures from the game.

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